to be gone, to be fair

I hope the Holidays have treated everyone well. Time has flown past me. Each year seems to draw a shorter time-span... Christmas came and went and here we are facing the new year again. 2010? That doesn't seem real. But a new year opens up vast amounts of new opportunities and experiences... treat each day kindly, and it will bestow you with goodness in return.

Sadly, I've yet to find out what will become of my laptop or my files. Its been 3 weeks since the hard drive crashed. At first I was quite intent on getting it fixed as soon as possible. But as Christmas got closer, I became busier. Slowly, the problem with my laptop became less and less of importance. I hate to admit it, but the time away from editing and other concerns has given me the chance to enjoy the Holidays more and spend it with friends and family rather then in front of the computer screen.
I can’t lie though, I miss my unfinished projects. Nearly everything lost can be replaced, except for the things I was working on. But I believe times are changing for me. If I don't get my files back, I think I'll view it as a very clean start to the new year...and carry on with other aspects of my life. I'm sure I'll continue editing eventually, but it may be awhile. I hope you are all patient with me when that times comes. You don’t know how hard it was for me to not be able to upload something for the Holidays. I truly want to do something for you all in the future. You have been loyal friends to me and great fans of my work. I’ll try not to let anyone down, so no worries <3

On to other matters...
Has it ever really bothered you when you discover something that you enjoy, and then you mention it to one person, and then all of a sudden the whole world is into that one thing, and you hate yourself for ever sharing your interest in the first place? That’s what happened with a certain Higashi no Eden. No one even knew what it was a few weeks ago, and I really liked that. It was something I could enjoy on my own. It really is such a great anime, after all. (I recommend it). But naturally, as how most good things end up, it has become so mainstream now that its almost impossible to look at it in the same light. Its rather irritating. Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against people becoming fans of it. Everyone has a right to like something, I don't have a problem with any of that and its not like I could stop that from happening anyway. But its simply the fact that you think you’ve found something totally unique, and then surprise!, its not so unique anymore. Now youngsters I don’t even know are telling me, oh have you watched this? And I'm like, gritting my teeth saying "Yes...months ago."
Similar story with Owl City. I remember when a few of my friends and I were the only ones who knew about it, and now all of a sudden, the entire Universe is singing to it, and I'm just rolling my eyes.

I think I'm ranting about this for no reason... but has this sort of thing ever happened to you? I feel like I'm the only one in the world who feels this way xD

Christmas was good this year. I had more fun shopping for other people than wondering what I would get. I got my mom an ipod.. She was stoked! That was probably the highlight of my Christmas, watching her unwrap it. I got a new Camera and a few odds and ends. I really have been dying for a Kindle! Like soooo bad. But I'm probably going to have to save up my money for one of those. I received a huge bonus this year, which I happily spent in the city on gifts for my mom and friends.

I'm still without a car. I'm going to apply for a job at the bank to roll in some extra moo. I'm going to attempt to save up some money for a down payment somehow. I'm probably going to go for a Volkswagen Golf...black or white. My obsession has been a black jetta for years. But lately, the Golf has been calling to me. That or an audi. Ooh my god, what I wouldn't give..

I have one week left until I return to school. I've been having some difficulties placing in all of my classes. I think I'm still on the waiting list for one...
This is going to be an extremely hard quarter for me. I'm taking Math, Sociology, and Biology. Hopefully I won't drive myself crazy.
I would love to just avoid school at all costs, but I need to get my AA by next Fall and then figure out what I want to do after that...
it never ends, does it?

I’ve been making some big decisions lately…as far as my future goes. I’ve become very content with my choice of major, which will at the moment be English. Writing is my most beloved hobby and strongest subject. Since I was a 5th grader, I have been told by teachers that I have a gift of some sort…. Not that I’m sure I believe them, but I feel most confident when I’m doing something literary. So that’s the path I choose.
I’m also thinking seriously about moving to the LA area in a year or two… my mom did the same thing when she was my age, and I feel that most of my ambitions can be fulfilled down there, if I approach things correctly.

There’s much to be thankful for this Holiday season. I hope you all found happiness and warmth amongst your friends and family, and can carry on the Christmas spirit throughout the new year. Thank you all for being so good to me <3 I will try to return to you with a new video someday. You can rest assured that the next project I ever release will be dedicated to all of you.

Bless you and live in the music.